THE TELL-TALE HEART.
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TRUE!
— nervous — very,
very
dreadfully nervous I had been and am; but why will you say that
I am mad? The disease had sharpened my senses — not destroyed — not
dulled
them. Above all was the sense of hearing acute. I heard all things in
the
heaven and in the earth. I heard many things in hell. How, then, am I
mad?
Hearken! and observe how healthily — how calmly I can tell you the
whole
story.
It is impossible to
say how first the idea
entered
my brain; but once conceived, it haunted me day and night. Object there
was none. Passion there was none. I loved the old man. He had never
wronged
me. He had never given me insult. For his gold I had no desire. I think
it was his eye! yes, it was this! One of his eyes resembled that of a
vulture — a pale
blue eye, with a film over it. Whenever it fell upon me, my blood ran
cold;
and so by degrees — very gradually — I made up my mind to take the life
of the old man, and thus rid myself of the eye forever.
Now this is the
point. You fancy me mad. Madmen
know
nothing. But you should have seen me. You should have seen how
wisely
I proceeded — with what caution — with what foresight — with what
dissimulation
I went to work! I was never kinder to the old man than during the whole
week before I killed him. And every night, about midnight, I turned the
latch of his door and opened it — oh, so gently! And then, when I had
made
an opening sufficient for my head, I put in a dark lantern, all closed,
closed, so that no light shone out, and then I thrust in my head. Oh,
you
would have laughed to see how cunningly I thrust it in! I moved it
slowly
— very, very slowly, so that I might not [page 383:]
disturb the old man's sleep. It took me an hour to place my whole head
within the opening so far that I could see him as he lay upon his bed.
Ha! — would a madman have been so wise as this? And then, when my head
was well in the room, I undid the lantern cautiously — oh, so
cautiously
— cautiously (for the hinges creaked) — I undid it just so much that a
single thin ray fell upon the vulture eye. And this I did for seven
long
nights — every night just at midnight — but I found the eye always
closed;
and so it was impossible to do the work; for it was not the old man who
vexed me, but his Evil Eye. And every morning, when the day broke, I
went
boldly into the chamber, and spoke courageously to him, calling him by
name in a hearty tone, and inquiring how he had passed the night. So
you
see he would have been a very profound old man, indeed, to suspect that
every night, just at twelve, I looked in upon him while he slept.
Upon the eighth night
I was more than usually
cautious
in opening the door. A watch's minute hand moves more quickly than did
mine. Never before that night had I felt the extent of my own
powers
— of my sagacity. I could scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To
think
that there I was, opening the door, little by little, and he not even
to
dream of my secret deeds or thoughts. I fairly chuckled at the idea;
and
perhaps he heard me; for he moved on the bed suddenly, as if startled.
Now you may think that I drew back — but no. His room was as black as
pitch
with the thick darkness, (for the shutters were close fastened, through
fear of robbers,) and so I knew that he could not see the opening of
the
door, and I kept pushing it on steadily, steadily.
I had my head in, and
was about to open the
lantern,
when my thumb slipped upon the tin fastening, and the old man sprang up
in the bed, crying out — "Who's there?"
I kept quite still
and said nothing. For a whole
hour I did not move a muscle, and in the meantime I did not hear him
lie
down. He was still sitting up in the bed listening; — just as I have
done,
night after night, hearkening to the death watches in the wall.
Presently I heard a
slight groan, and I knew it
was
the groan of mortal terror. It was not a groan of pain or of grief —
oh,
no! — it was the low stifled sound that arises from the bottom of the [page
384:] soul when overcharged with awe. I knew the sound well.
Many a night, just at midnight, when all the world slept, it has welled
up from my own bosom, deepening, with its dreadful echo, the terrors
that
distracted me. I say I knew it well. I knew what the old man felt, and
pitied him, although I chuckled at heart. I knew that he had been lying
awake ever since the first slight noise, when he had turned in the bed.
His fears had been ever since growing upon him. He had been trying to
fancy
them causeless, but could not. He had been saying to himself — "It is
nothing
but the wind in the chimney — it is only a mouse crossing the floor,"
or
"it is merely a cricket which has made a single chirp." Yes, he has
been
trying to comfort himself with these suppositions: but he had found all
in vain. All in vain; because Death, in approaching him had
stalked
with his black shadow before him, and enveloped the victim. And it was
the mournful influence of the unperceived shadow that caused him to
feel
— although he neither saw nor heard — to feel the presence of
my
head within the room.
When I had waited a
long time, very patiently,
without
hearing him lie down, I resolved to open a little — a very, very little
crevice in the lantern. So I opened it — you cannot imagine how
stealthily,
stealthily — until, at length a single dim ray, like the thread of the
spider, shot from out the crevice and fell upon the vulture eye.
It was open — wide,
wide open — and I grew
furious
as I gazed upon it. I saw it with perfect distinctness — all a dull
blue,
with a hideous veil over it that chilled the very marrow in my bones;
but
I could see nothing else of the old man's face or person: for I had
directed
the ray as if by instinct, precisely upon the damned spot.
And now have I not
told you that what you mistake
for
madness is but over acuteness of the senses? — now, I say, there came
to
my ears a low, dull, quick sound, such as a watch makes when enveloped
in cotton. I knew that sound
well, too. It was the beating of the old man's
heart. It increased my fury, as the beating of a drum stimulates the
soldier
into courage.
But even yet I
refrained and kept still. I
scarcely
breathed. I held the lantern motionless. I tried how steadily I could
maintain [page 385:] the ray upon the eye.
Meantime the
hellish
tattoo of the heart increased. It grew quicker and quicker, and louder
and louder every instant. The old man's terror must have been
extreme!
It grew louder, I say, louder every moment! — do you mark me well? I
have
told you that I am nervous: so I am. And now at the dead hour of the
night,
amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so strange a noise as this
excited me to uncontrollable terror. Yet, for some minutes longer I
refrained
and stood still. But the beating grew louder, louder! I thought the
heart
must burst. And now a new anxiety seized me — the sound would be heard
by a neighbor! The old man's hour had come! With a loud yell, I threw
open
the lantern and leaped into the room. He shrieked once — once only. In
an instant I dragged him to the floor, and pulled the heavy bed over
him.
I then smiled gaily, to find the deed so far done. But, for many
minutes,
the heart beat on with a muffled sound. This, however, did not vex me;
it would not be heard through the wall. At length it ceased. The old
man
was dead. I removed the bed and examined the corpse. Yes, he was stone,
stone dead. I placed my hand upon the heart and held it there many
minutes.
There was no pulsation. He was stone dead. His eye would trouble me no
more.
If still you think me
mad, you will think so no
longer
when I describe the wise precautions I took for the concealment of the
body. The night waned, and I worked hastily, but in silence. First of
all
I dismembered the corpse. I cut off the head and the arms and the legs.
I then took up three
planks from the flooring of
the chamber, and deposited all between the scantlings. I then replaced
the boards so cleverly, so cunningly, that no human eye — not even his
— could have detected any thing wrong. There was nothing to wash out —
no stain of any kind — no blood-spot whatever. I had been too wary for
that. A tub had caught all — ha! ha!
When I had made an
end of these labors, it was
four
o'clock — still dark as midnight. As the bell sounded the hour, there
came
a knocking at the street door. I went down to open it with a light
heart,
— for what had I now to fear? There entered three men, who
introduced
themselves, with perfect suavity, as officers [page 386:] of
the police. A shriek had been heard by a neighbor during the night;
suspicion
of foul play had been aroused; information had been lodged at the
police
office, and they (the officers) had been deputed to search the
premises.
I smiled, — for what
had I to fear? I bade the gentlemen
welcome. The shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The old man, I
mentioned,
was absent in the country. I took my visitors all over the house. I
bade
them search — search well. I led them, at length, to his chamber.
I showed them his treasures, secure, undisturbed. In the enthusiasm of
my confidence, I brought chairs into the room, and desired them here
to rest from their fatigues, while I myself, in the wild audacity of my
perfect triumph, placed my own seat upon the very spot beneath which
reposed
the corpse of the victim.
The officers were
satisfied. My manner had
convinced
them. I was singularly at ease. They sat, and while I answered
cheerily,
they chatted of familiar things. But, ere long, I felt myself getting
pale
and wished them gone. My head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my
ears:
but still they sat and still chatted. The ringing became more distinct:
— it continued and became more distinct: I talked more freely to get
rid
of the feeling: but it continued and gained definitiveness — until, at
length,
I found that the noise was not within my ears.
No doubt I now grew very
pale; — but I
talked
more fluently, and with a heightened voice. Yet the sound increased —
and
what could I do? It was a low, dull,
quick sound — much such a sound as
a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I gasped for breath —
and yet the
officers heard it not. I talked more quickly — more vehemently; but the
noise steadily increased. I arose and argued about trifles, in a high
key
and with violent gesticulations; but the noise steadily increased. Why would
they not be gone? I paced the floor to and fro
with heavy
strides, as if excited to fury by the observations of the men — but the
noise steadily increased. Oh God! what could I do? I foamed — I raved —
I swore! I swung the chair upon which I had been sitting, and grated it
upon the boards, but the noise arose over all and continually
increased.
It grew louder — louder — louder!
And still the men chatted pleasantly,
and smiled. Was it possible they heard not? Almighty [page
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God! — no, no! They heard! — they suspected! — they knew! —
they
were making a mockery of my horror! — this I thought, and this I think.
But anything was better than this agony! Anything was more tolerable
than
this derision! I could bear those hypocritical smiles no longer! I felt
that I must scream or die! — and now — again! — hark! louder! louder!
louder! louder! —
"Villains!" I
shrieked, "dissemble no more! I
admit
the deed! — tear up the planks! — here, here! — it is the beating of
his
hideous heart!"